Waiting

What am i doing now? I am waiting somethings happen.

- waiting dinner
- waiting they coming to review my FLAT
- waiting those things bought from "Taste"
- waiting back to office and handle all trouble issues
- waiting for the gathering @6/30
- waiting for 7/1 holiday
- waiting for Poly's reply

為什麼人總是要等什麼? 這幾年, 很多事情已/在變. 無論你想與不想, 都要變. 人與人之間, 家人, 愛情, 朋友都在變. 無得避, 無得拒絕. 只可以在擁有時盡力珍惜吧.

Raining day

Stay @ home. Listening songs, writing blog .............This is my SAT on 6/27. I forced to stay home because of the heavy rain. :( Maybe it is good. Can save some money, take a big / deep rest to earn back some energy. No more young, can not crazy / drunk / mad all the time. Hv a nice gathering last night but cost much $$. Hope everyone doing well and awaiting next one coming!!

Send a mail to ex-colleagues to tell them i am still alive and show them i am not that 無情 / 冷血. Unfortunately, just get one reply with 敷衍 wording. I did not hv any bad feeling because i hv done my job. Sometimes, we can not control other's reaction. Tried my best, 已覺得問心無愧. 算吧!!

換個方式愛你

Suddenly love this song. Repeat ..........repeat and repeat in my i-tune. Maybe i do want to follow the name of this song = Change the method to love u. Almost 10 years, everything seems 應份, 習慣, 能變, 順理成章. Sometimes, strongly feel that it not the right way to love anymore. 總有一天, 當雙方不再受對方的時候, 就會變得一發不可收. 我怕 ................


沒有驚天動地　沒有掌聲讚美
前路遙遠沒空氣　仍期望到最後會一起

直到冰天絕地　亦會開遍薔薇
無望完美　回頭或有驚喜

傳說愛會成就勇氣　飛出去世界更旖旎
行李載滿懷念幾重　總相信我會拿得起
曾抱過你然後兩臂　將一世記掛這滋味
請愛惜　愛惜你自己

若隔開天共地　換個方式愛你　停住時間或空氣　原來合上眼就會一起　
做最好的夢寐　預最傷的結尾 長夜流過　從頭在記憶中　碰上你
從未忘記　從前在記憶中　吻過你

Selfish

I totally agree that i am a selfish guy. I always focus on myself i/o other's need / request. But i changed alot, i do concern other's feeling now. I did ...........

Those days, there is something which drive me mad / worry. I can not accept this changes but how i can express my real feeling and change his/her mind?? Hard to accept / get use to new things = this is one of my weakness.

真的不想有太大改變. 我一直以為這是我最終的XX. 從來都無想過要走. 可能在我身上所發生的事永遠好像順風順水吧. 應該是時候要面對現實了. 不過我依然會爭取的!!!

心亂

心總是亂,
總是胡思亂想,
總是放不低.
總是念念不忘,
總是發白日夢,
總是拖拖拉拉,
總是明日再會 .................

BORING

Weekend = Boring. I start not enjoying my weekend. Just sleeping, doing GYM, shopping, watching movie.....again and again, repeat and repeat. I want somethings SPECIAL and DIFFERENT. Today, when i on the bed......, suddenly feel scary, i seems lost myself totally.

These years / days, i always follow other's instruction, needs, wants. I seldom think about myself. Maybe it is the right time to make some changes. Fight for those things which i want, maybe quit my job, family, love and plan to travel outside. There are many places i want to go / visit. Hate Japan, Hate Tokyo!!! Haha ..........Japan bring me lot of unforgetable experience.

The 1st time i see snow
The 1st time try hot spring
The 1st time i collect my toys within 5 days.
The 1st time i feed the bears
The 1st time ................

Somethings

Yesterday, i write a long long msge @ office during lunch time and try to post it @ my blog = here to express my feeling for SOMETHINGS. This msge now still in my outlook "Draft". But i decided to delete it. Because i want to forget those unhappy moment / issue. Anyway, i post the last sentence here ..................

花無百日紅. 祝他們一路順風.
祝自己早日全面放低, 不再為一些巳過去的事而不開心

Inorder to cheer myself up.
I plan to get drunk on this Friday. Ha Ha :)

愚人的國度

愛是愚人的國度　
看我們演的好辛苦　
是你所謂的領悟　 我不懂　我不哭　

看悲歡喜怒每一步　
是疲憊還是依賴的束縛　
來你能不能再重復　 讓我懂　讓我哭　

再讓時間停住　 再把字看清楚　
不必再說假如　 我　唱過　天地荒蕪　 借口　不能碰觸　

愛是愚人的國度　 不能自拔　不懂退出　
我們都回不去最初　 曾美麗　但還是不滿足　
愛是自娛自樂演出　 一步一步自我陷入　 究竟　是笑　是哭

Qingdao

Just come back from Qingdao. It is my 1st time to go this place. Feeling is quite exciting. Althought, timing is really tight but i still enjoy it very much . See more, know more .....................why not??? Super tried because the hotel make a huge mistake. Keep giving me wrong morning call, 6:35am, 7:10am, 7:30am, 7:35am, 7:36am, 7:37am and 7:40am. Actually, i only need 2 (7:30am and 7:35am). Dun know why this hv happened on me!! SHIT!!!

Heard from my ex-vendor. My boss will hire a M and helping that SM who replace me. Am I feel bad? A little bit. Since this is really unfair.........I asking for someone to help me for over 2 years. Result = no. Now = yes.

From other point of review, i need to say thanks to him + her. If not, i will not brave enough to start my new life. I think i earn more than loss. I can be a positive guy :)