I am not strong enough

這些日子, 我都彷彿在折磨自己. 凡事往壞方面處想. 不再是positive 小子. 正能量負數. 怎樣?? 很懷疑, 很擔心.........Want some solid things. Want some promises / commitmenst. Maybe i give myself too much pressure. Maybe i never get enough pressure.

So confusing!!! 174 is 174. Need find out some solutions to escape exisiting situation. Give me a hand or give me a diet menu. They both workable. What i am asking for? what i can asking for?

I need to fix my silly thinking / attitude / body before 2010. Cheer up. Tmw is a crazy day!! Hate Rockstart, hate 肥豬, hate everyone. Hate myself!!!!